Musings, diets and weight goals.

So today, I was reading through the list of blogs I follow, which is sadly neglected.

I think this whole side of my life has been neglected lately. It's pretty obvious, since I've been eating like crazy lately. I've slacked off on this side of things, and that is almost unforgivable to me. It's just sheer, crazy luck that I've managed to remain between 137 and 139--as far as I know, I haven't gone above 139, which I count as a minor victory, though perhaps it's not a victory so much as it's a mercy given to me. But that's really not the point, is it? The point is, it has to stop. Now.

You've probably all lost faith in me--I know I've lost faith in myself. I haven't offered anything except hollow promises and too many starting-overs to count. This falling away has been the worse, it's lasted far too long already.

I think my main problem has been in my starting-overs. I've just said 'There, I'm starting over.' and then I don't have a plan. I'm lost. I just kind of float around not paying attention to what I eat, to what I do. So this time, I do have a diet plan.

Today, I read about a diet called the Staircase diet. It starts out ridiculously high (1300 calories), steps down to 0, then steps back up ridiculously high (1250). Well, I didn't want to end so high... so I modified it. I tacked some on the end, stepping down to 500. It still didn't feel complete... so I added the ABC diet to the end of it. It's come out to a diet that'll last 93 days, which, as you know, is about three months. I'm extremely nervous, but also extremely excited because of all the calorie glory I'll get to wallow in for the first couple of days--as if I haven't already been wallowing in just as much or more! So I decided to count today as day one. I think I've had more than the limit, because I had to go out to dinner with my family today, but I'm still going to call it, just to get the highest day out of the way. This is the entire thing, btw:

1. 1300 calories
2. 1200 calories
3. 1100 calories
4. 1000 calories
5. 900 calories
6. 800 calories
7. 700 calories
8. 600 calories
9. 500 calories
10. 400 calories
11. 300 calories
12. 200 calories
13. 100 calories
14. Fast
15. 100 calories
16. 200 calories
17. 300 calories
18. 350 calories
19. 400 calories
20. 450 calories
21. 500 calories
22. 550 calories
23. 600 calories
24. 650 calories
25. 700 calories
26. 750 calories
27. 800 calories
28. 850 calories
29. 900 calories
30. 950 calories
31. 1000 calories
32. 1050 calories
33. 1100 calories
34. 1150 calories
35. 1200 calories
36. 1250 calories
(This is what I added)
37. 1100 calories
38. 1000 calories
39. 900 calories
40. 800 calories
41. 700 calories
42. 600 calories
43. 500 calories
(And this is where ABC starts)
44. 500 calories
45. 500 calories
46. 300 calories
47. 400 calories
48. 100 calories
49. 200 calories
50. 300 calories
51. 400 calories
52. 500 calories
53. Fast
54. 150 calories
55. 200 calories
56. 400 calories
57. 350 calories
58. 250 calories
59. 200 calories
60. Fast
61. 200 calories
62. 100 calories
63. Fast
64. 300 calories
65. 250 calories
66. 200 calories
67. 150 calories
68. 100 calories
69. 50 calories
70. 100 calories
71. 200 calories
72. 200 calories
73. 300 calories
74. 800
75. Fast
76. 250 calories
77. 350 calories
78. 450 calories
79. Fast
80. 500 calories
81. 450 calories
82. 400 calories
83. 350 calories
84. 300 calories
85. 250 calories
86. 200 calories
87. 200 calories
88. 250 calories
89. 200 calories
90. 300 calories
91. 200 calories
92. 150 calories
93. Fast

I might throw in a few extra fasts as I go along, but right now, it's daunting as it is, so I'm not going to mess with it.

So, to stick with my new plan, I'm going to start making meal plans for the next day, plus writing down what I actually do eat. Now, like I said, I don't have a tally for today, but whatever, I'm still calling it.

Tomorrow is 1200 calories, and this is my plan: (Side note: My teas are 0-cal since I don't use real sugar. I do use creamer and stuff in my coffee, but it's like my little treat, so I don't count those calories. Other liquid calories are noted.)

Breakfast:
Grapefruit - 100 calories
Coffee
Green tea
Supplements

Snack:

Vanilla chai tea

Lunch:
Salad w/ dressing - 28 calories
Leftovers - (High est.) 400 calories
One slice of bread - 70 calories
Milk (1 c.) - 100 calories
Green tea

Snack:
Sprite Zero

Supper:
Salad w/ dressing - 28 calories
Frozen meal - 290 calories
Milk (1 c.) - 100 calories
Oolong tea

Snack:
French vanilla black tea

Total for the day: 1115

Wish me luck with this!

Stay strong (unlike me) xoxo